One day...

Every time I think of him, it feels like the end of an era.
So many dreams go unfulfilled.
So many places we couldn't travel together.
So many kisses left undone.
So many talks silenced out.
So many emotions died inside of us.

Insomnia takes me up everytime i think of you, what if you were the right one?
I could've said it back, I could have kept it intact.

But 'Could haves' won't ever get me back to the time, when we promised to make it through forever.
  
Maybe that's what i was scared of, FOREVER.
   
It's a long time they say.

Maybe you were the only one who knew what a vulnerable and gullible person i was in those days.

It wasn't love baby. It wasn't what I wished it to be.
But it was Beautiful.

The world to travel and people to meet.
Soulmate I wish to find, cliched as it might sound.

Settle when my heart knows it, love till someone breaks it.
Dreams I wish to chase and life that never stops challenging.

You were inspiration, but certainly not my destination.
One day, when we meet, we will smile and feel content, cause we'll know it wasn't meant to be.
We'll smile, cause it was never about me and you.

'The One' In My Life.

We talk random shit together
We have our inside jokes
We cook together
We play thumb fight to decide who cleans the table
We fight for the last piece of chicken
We yell when Csk plays against Mi
We have deep conversations
We laugh on the dumb we play
We decide on who wears what to the party
We sing old songs together
We dance when we feel like

We mock each other
We get pissed
We understand
We yell
We care

No this isn't any stupid post about my girl friend or anyone else.

                                        This is about a man

He's no ordinary, he's an inspiration. He teaches you how to live by living that life himself. He is grounded, he is proud. He is humble. He will never hesitate to  help someone in need. He is still the little guy at his heart. He will slap you hard when you do wrong and then sit on the ground with you, trying to mend it.  He is smart, he knows how to deal with people.
          He will do anything to see his children happy. He is the one who dares me to follow my dreams, to never ever settle for less and to strive hard. He is the guy every man would dream of becoming. He is reckless yet so patient. Tired at times but so full of life. He is magnificent, he is handsome.
          The man who I owe my life to. The man I never want to let down.
                                      
                                        HE IS MY DADDY

He will always be my Superman and I know I will always be his little baby.
Cause there is no relation in this world like his and mine.
I don't want to prove those hundreds wrong when they said I can't do it, I want to prove my Daddy right when he said I could.
   ''Don't you worry, don't you worry child, heaven's got a plan for you.''

P.S I couldn't put my everything into words. This man can never be described completely.

Little things.

                       Some posts simply put a smile on your face, and make you see the beauty in the littlest of things.

Because there will ALWAYS  be someone who admires you, cares for you and you'll still be here, thinking you aren't good enough. Love's the word.

Dreaming isn't sinning.

                 You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.
             I hope some day you join us, and the world will be as one.

A misfit is a blessing.

                        It's the night I wouldn't want to kill alone.
    
         Being alone is not loneliness, everyone needs to find themselves some time from this bizarre world, to ponder, to feel and to bring back the happy memories. Wonder about the world and it makes me think, am i the only one who feels like a misfit, in a place of 6 billion people. In the crowd, in the eyes, in the talks and the lips.
    
          You can feel it in the way I try to cope up with the conversations, or by doing something what they love. But wait...
      
        Its okay to state what you don't like what others pretend to love.

There must be so many, just like you. But they give in to this dolled up world, where you pretend to like things, buy things you would rather not and try to impress the people who lack the ability to see the inner beauty within you.
     
          Keep the friends who bring out the best in you, be the square in the circle of the world. You grow old baby and you know how much you helped yourself by trying not to fit in.

         Unleash the bitch, be someone you'd love to meet. Chuck the fake, don't live to impress anyone and find happiness within yourself. The day you learn to be happy by yourself is the day you have found out the 'More' in life.
      
That's all for tonight.
Night love.
Peace out.

Sometimes, all you need is faith.

            When life seems down and there's no hope, all you need is a person 

who fights with you.

Through all the bad in life, sometimes its your family, a friend or your soulmate.

Just one person to make you believe

That it's all going to be okay.                                                                                                                      

                                                                                           

You're the DIVA.

          Your life is like a drama, and everyone wants to be the center of attraction, but baby, you gotta be the 'DIVA' of your play. Be classy, anything but trashy. Forget the mess, wear your heart on your sleeve, dance in the rain, pose like the world is yours to take, cause it really is. Dream the absurd. Laugh so hard that your stomach hurts. Be so happy that others forget about their pain when they look at you. Smile, even at your haters and irritate the meanness out of them. Never hold grudges, there is Hope. There is Faith. Someday, when the fate decided to take you away, the flashbacks are so beautiful, you say 'Yes! I lived it all. I made it'.
         That's life. Sometimes we over think, over react, but we are allowed,we all are humans. Never fail to give back to life what it gave you. Make mistakes, cry your heart out, but never twice on the same reason. Meet people, love them, spill the secrets and treat everyone with kindness. Never forget, what goes around does come around and never ever ever back down. It's gonna be worth it one day.

#Believe #Love #Hope #Dare #Dream

Live it out.

In The Lonely Path Of Broken Dreams

How does it feel to be on the other side of the closed door? What is it like to handle rejection and feel like nobody really gives a thought about your existence? You're not even a passing thought in the minds of people who don't seem to get off your minds.
          Its disheartening. The pain is enduring. Its like the one you might have seen in movies or read about in novels.
And it hurts, it hurts because you care. Years went by and you always had your heart guarded. The day that you realized that this world is not what it seems and you can't ever trust anybody, you slowly escaped to the self centered world. Not the self obsessive one but the one where you just pretended to be happy, just to get away from the incessant questioning.
          But this one person comes in your life, nothing different than the other stupid people. But he made you feel good, even though for a temporary time.
You feel like you finally have someone you could lay back on. But one day, REALITY STRIKES you, a little bit too hard for you to take. You scream, you fight, because the picture perfect scenario comes crashing down and it all seems unreal in a split second.
          It isnt a i will get over it with time kinda feeling, its a gets inside your heart and rips you apart kinda emotion.
You take the flashback, for the first signs, for the first fall. But its not your fault honey. You just took a chance and this world failed you, MISERABLY.
The pain won't go away because it wasn't supposed to end this way. And you never thought those sugar coated promises of being there for you forever would turn out to be the reason for feeling broken inside.
         But you're not the only one who is afraid of getting attached. You aren't the only one who have all their defenses worked up because they see the reality, the cruelty.
Let me tell you darling, we are all the same. A little afraid of being cheated upon, and ignored. We are the kinda people who see the inner worth of everyone, we love them, believe in them and stand up for them. Because somewhere deep down, we want somebody to do the same for us.
       Its okay to cry, its okay to scream and act like you don't care, when deep down you know its tearing you apart. And sometimes its okay to speak out, what your heart has kept engraved for a long time
       You will get over it i promise. Everyone does. Believe that somewhere out there someone is waiting to heal our soul. Till then its fine to be a little broken, we all are. Smile, think about what the future might hold for us and don't keep grudges. Forgive cause you're better than all the people who are the sole reason we call this world a heartless place.
      Don't let the world make you hard. Don't let the past relationships make you sour. Live, its too short to hate and always know that you're Beautiful.

Once In A Lifetime.. Soul mate.. Infinity and Beyond.

                 
                         

                         He was the kinda guy you meet once in a lifetime.

                The way his smile dimmed the shine of the entire world.
                The way he would look at you, like you were the only one on the planet.
                There was a childishness in him that would irritate me.
                The looks that could make your adrenaline rush.
                The laugh that could make you look at him like forever.
                The way his eyes lit up when you talked of something he loved.
                The embarrassed half smile when you'd catch him looking at you.
                        He was Perfect, in a way you'd want him to be.
                       
                                         He was all I could ask for.
   
A push when i refused to move on. A hug when my vulnerable self couldn't hold more and a kiss to soothe the brazing lady. He was irresistible. After all he was a fantasy, a guy any girl would give in to. With that hair and a double tooth smile, he made them fall in love.

        Its still hard for my gut to take it, but he fell in love. The guy every girl cherished and would want to make her own, fell in love. WITH ME.
I could tell you from the way he shook my hand for almost 90 seconds to wish me 'Happy Birthday' to the way he'd desperately search for me when i wasn't around. It was in his eyes and the way they say it "When a guy is in love you can see it in his eyes and when a girl is in love you can see it in her smile"

       Everyone could make out from that day that the guy who hardly looked at any other girl, refused to take his eyes from me. It felt special, loved and overwhelming.

      Not even dementia can take away this memory from me.
A rainy day, as I got down from the bus, there he was. With a contagious smile and a glint in his eyes that could take away my breath. I could make out there was something he was hiding behind his back.He stood there shifting his balance from one leg to another, and his every move was started to give him away. I wondered what was up with this usually not so romantic guy. And as I stood just a feet away from him, throwing my hands up as to ask why was he there. He bent and sat on one knee, making all the people around look at us. He pulled out the bouquet of pink roses (he knew me way too well to tell that red couldn't work with me)he was hiding, looked up and said, 'I have never seen a soul as beautiful as yours, the way your every move makes me go crazy. I have met so many girls in my life, but nobody has been so enlightening. You're are my biggest admirer and my best critic. You make me forget every thing around me and you're the girl I would like to spend my entire life with'.
     I took the bouquet and he gave me a half smile, he took me in his arms and said 'You're amazing girl, I love you'.
                 
                   And in that moment, I swear, We Were Infinite.